Perhaps I wanted to lose what felt like all the pieces on the time to comprehend I nonetheless had lots. Perhaps I wanted to lose myself alongside the way in which to comprehend who I wished to be and eventually take the right steps in direction of getting there. Perhaps I wanted to hit all-time low each onerous and quick to maintain me humble and understand all the pieces I've and had labored for may very well be taken straight away. Perhaps I wanted to lose as a result of I gained all I may inside my consolation zone and solely when being compelled out of it could I develop the way in which I wanted to.
Perhaps I wanted to lose so I may be taught to detach happiness to accomplishments, status, milestones, concrete issues and other people and be taught that the basis of happiness is discovered inside myself. Perhaps I wanted a lesson in persistence when it felt like nothing was coming collectively and there my religion could be examined. Perhaps I wanted to lose to comprehend what wanted to alter weren’t occasions however somewhat my angle in direction of detrimental issues taking place. Perhaps I wanted to alter as an alternative of clinging to routine so the universe compelled all the pieces else in my life to alter so I'd ultimately take the trace.
Perhaps I wanted that isolation and loneliness to judge precisely the place I wished to go from there with none distractions. Perhaps I wanted to lose some individuals alongside the way in which to comprehend who actually would stand by me via the robust occasions. Perhaps I wanted to let go of everybody to see who actually was holding on.
Perhaps I wanted a lesson in placing myself first for as soon as. Perhaps I wanted to lose love to comprehend there have been nonetheless elements of me that wanted to learn to love myself and that couldn’t be present in even the perfect relationship. Perhaps I wanted a heartbreaking goodbye to lastly take steps in direction of the place and who I wanted to be. Perhaps I wanted to discover a relationship solely to lose it to be taught gratitude and appreciation for somebody so good and sort. That an ending I may not like didn’t imply the story wasn’t a very good one.
Perhaps I wanted to fall a component so I may be taught to place myself again collectively once more.
Perhaps I wanted to lose all of all of it to comprehend what felt like a loss was really a acquire.
Perhaps I wanted to lose myself as a result of solely then I'd be discovered.