I’ve seen you do it, you already know.
I’ve seen you run to date inside your soul that you simply’ll by no means be capable to discover the place you hid your self. I’ve seen you dash into your individual abyss considering, “Try and catch me now.” I’ve seen you attempt to masks this, considering no person seen.
However I did. I do know what you appear to be once you’re scared.
We, as people, are blessed with many items. A kind of is our potential to overlook, to push issues down to date we are able to’t discover them anymore. Our potential to go away behind the issues that harm so we don’t need to really feel something if we don’t wish to.
The power to flee.
Escapism takes siege of your life in varied types, and generally with out your individual data. Image it very similar to a chokehold over your existence that disguises itself as an embrace—you suppose escaping the harm will enable you to, will make you're feeling higher, when all it actually does is make it worse over time.
Loss is hard, grief is insufferable generally, and the scars these can depart in your soul appear to be as everlasting as something may be. However that doesn’t imply these emotions aren’t necessary, and so they’re additionally not issues we are supposed to ignore.
In case you preserve doing what you’re doing, good friend, you’ll by no means study to really feel something in any respect.
Although making an attempt to flee your self appears simpler, you can not proceed to do that. You can't proceed to promote it as “facing your reality,” as everybody can see straight by means of that lie. You’re solely hurting your self right here.
Escaping is less complicated. It’s extra gratifying within the second, however really going through your shit and coping with it head on is your best option you'll ever make for your self. Look who you might be lifeless within the eye and embrace the hell out of that mess and do one thing about it.
In case you don’t, in the event you at all times attempt to escape who you might be, you’ll by no means end up. Probably not. Certain, you’ll be capable to construct a sturdy sufficient actuality, however it's going to at all times collapse. You'll be able to’t construct your self upon lies and faux apologies and bullshit.
In case you proceed on on this means, one thing will at all times really feel off to you. There'll at all times be a voice in your head reminding you that one thing isn’t fairly proper. In case you cease making an attempt to flee your self, in the event you sit and soak in the whole lot about who you might be, this voice will quiet and finally stop.
You’ll change into the particular person everybody is aware of you may be, the particular person I do know you may be.
However that’s totally as much as you. You've gotten a option to make. Are you happy with always operating away, or would you lastly wish to face your self?
Are you completed making an attempt to flee who you might be?