I’m sorry I uncared for you for the previous three years. I’m sorry I ignored what you felt in your whole physique due to what you felt in your coronary heart.
I’m sorry I stored making excuses for him. I’m sorry I didn’t will let you let different folks in—your family and friends—since you have been so ashamed of what was occurring to you, since you hated the thought of them figuring out how weak you possibly can be, that you possibly can permit a person to lie, manipulate and bully you. I’m sorry I locked you away and remoted you, I’m sorry I claimed the disgrace he ought to really feel as yours. I’m sorry I allow you to fall asleep with photos of red-stained wrists and trains dashing beneath you. I’m sorry I allow you to fall into the lure of your nightmares, hoping you wouldn’t get up.
I’m sorry I made you publish faux selfies on social media, I’m sorry I made your smile grow to be pressured. I’m sorry I made certainly one of your most lovely qualities a lie. I’m sorry I made you placed on a present for the world as a result of I so desperately needed us to be one thing unattainable. I’m sorry I stored you hanging on to the thought of him. I’m sorry I tortured you with ‘what ifs’ and ‘maybes’. I’m sorry I disillusioned you when he didn’t present up and I advised you ‘he just might’. I’m sorry for the best way your coronary heart crumpled like an outdated balloon. I’m sorry I advised you he was able to a lot greater than he ever was.
I’m sorry I made you assume you didn’t deserve extra.
I’m sorry I allowed you to have panic assaults on the lavatory ground. I’m sorry I made you run showers so you possibly can sob in secret. I’m sorry I allow you to disintegrate over espresso with buddies when he left blue patterns in your ivory pores and skin. I’m sorry I let him plant seeds of self-doubt and self-hatred in your coronary heart, and I’m sorry I allow them to develop so wild and so ugly, they took away the entire lovely issues about you. I’m sorry I let him steal the very essence of who you might be. I’m sorry I let him make you consider that everybody else round you noticed you with the identical contempt that he did.
I’m sorry I let him persuade you that you just have been broken and damaged and exhausting to like. I’m sorry I let him make you assume what you wanted and needed from a boyfriend was not possible.
I’m sorry it took me so long as it did to see the sunshine, to struggle again, to search out your power. I’m sorry I didn’t let you know each day simply how unbelievable you might be, that you're able to having the whole lot you need on this life. I’m sorry I didn’t let you know that I like you each morning and reassure you each night that issues would get higher.
I’m sorry I didn’t whisper to you in the midst of the evening when your ideas have been choking you that should you took your self out of this world, it could be an infinite disservice, as a result of your voice wouldn’t be heard, and your voice is essentially the most highly effective factor you've gotten.
I’m sorry I didn’t let you know that the one love it's best to ever go loopy over preserving is the love you've gotten for your self. I’m sorry I didn’t make you struggle for that as a substitute of for him. I’m sorry I forgot who my precedence is.
I’m sorry I didn’t let you know all of this sooner, candy woman, as a result of it’s true.
It’s all true.